I'm Only Human

I'm only human
God made me so
I'm only human
It's so hard to let go
The hell in my life I have been through
The trauma is still there
I'm only human
I love, I trust, I care
I'm only human
I forget about me daily along the way
I'm only human
I have to dig deep for me, everyday
I'm only human
I have fears, and I am scared too
I am only human
I am no more nor less than you
I'm only human
Please don't tell me to "cheer up"
I'm only human
So much fills my cup
I'm only human
Trying to get it right
With God I know it's possible
To continue this fight, with all my might
I'm only human
Can't just make 'it' just go away
I'm only human
A child afraid still
I'm only human
An angry child, exposed so young to many horror's
So for me you see
I'm only human
And "it" is Never Over!

©Dana Price

2014

A Look Back To Now

Looking back over yesteryear
I often wonder why
Thoughts of happiness
Bring tears stinging hard
Is it the innocence of times?
Were the fields so green?
Running, playing, laughing
That never was, that sadden
Today let's run
Laugh at silly things
Make our own memories
Today while fields are still green...

©Dana E Price

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Paradise In The Sky

Can you hear the wish I make each night
While I gaze at my shining star
Do you know my voice, or feel my hearts touch
Whether I am near or far
Everywhere within my realm
Do you sense me wanting to be near
I fill the very sky around me with
My wishes, my dreams and my fears
Watching the moon, so beautiful, so full
Draped in its shadowy lace
Then very soon, right before my eyes
It's face becomes your face
I sit awhile, upon a cloud in my mind
To hold your memory near
Gentle breezes all about
Are whispers in my ear
Sweet are the thoughts I think now
So genuine is my smile
I want to steal your heart away
So we can dream together for awhile
I send my drape of the Moon and Stars
And invisible wings you can borrow
Then you can fly above the Earth
Where there is no tomorrow
Then if maybe you see me there
Maybe hear my gentle tune
You will find my Paradise way up here
First left turn just past the Moon.

©Dana Price

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A P O L O G E T I C?

A P O L O G E T I C?

Why does it always seem
That I am saying I'm sorry, I failed
When it is other people that
Need to step back and take a hard look at themselves

No, you sure are not perfect
You have problems too
I just choose not to hide mine
Hide, Oh Hide like you!

Oh I used to hide
A long time ago
It got tiring and was to hard
I finally stopped and so

Don’t you dare condemn me
For the way I am today
You are so imperfect
In so very many ways!

Step back, take a look
At the you of today
Then I dare you to belittle anyone
Everything has been handed to you, in your way!

Well, well, you won't like this but
It stops, here and now
Find your own way you self-centered ass
Let's see how good you do all alone this time, now!!!

©Dana Price

WRITTEN FOR THOSE WHO CARE ONLY ABOUT THEMSELF!!

The Battle Won

I heard it in the distance
One clear and starry eve
Wondered what it was
That was hissing and screeching, carried on the breeze

I felt an icy chill
Come over me, that's when
I begged for some sort of magic
To take it away I thought, this awful howling wind

Then I saw it happening
Before my very eyes
A Wizard and A Dragon
Locked in battle, one would meet demise

The Dragon had tried his patience again
The Wizard would have no more
The old Wizard still did not know
What the Dragon hated him for

You see this was not the first time
These two warriors had met
Many years had seen them battle
Neither winning this war yet

But this night would be different
I could tell from my hiding place
That the old Wizard was determined to win tonight
I saw it on his face

He gathered all his magic this time
He would defeat the Dragon this night
The old Wizard was tired of wondering
Why for years this fight

The Dragon always came
When the old man was feeling so low
He wondered why that always was
Did the Dragon think he would then deal his final blow

He was weary of this battle of years
Something else was on his mind
Thoughts of one he had lost, many years before
His fault he thought, because he was one of his own kind

Then he heard the Dragon's roar again
Almost sorrowful he had thought
Again he thought of the one he lost
Whose life he could not save, that fateful night he fought

But enough of this, he was so tired
Tonight his best magic he would use
He went and met the Dragon again
Tonight he would not lose

Then tears welled in his eyes, thinking "tonight it is done"
The Dragon stopped hissing, and began also to cry
In that moment they both realized, he was the one years ago lost
Not dead but a Dragon, a spell put upon
He was the old Wizard's son....

©Dana Price

I've been told I was no burden
I wanted it to be true
But many times now in my life
A burden I've been even to me too

Circumstances

They mean well I think when they say
You are not bothering me at all
Then their actions scream louder
You just have to take care of it all

Lonely

Sometimes I get so tired
Of taking care of things alone
I want to stop, just give up
Just rest until it's all gone

Pain

Then I see once more I have to be
That damn adult I've been since age four
It gets so tiring for me
But I have to go on again, once more

Anger

So here I go one more time again
Having to be the grown up I hate so much
Oh to be a child, just once in my life
Just to feel a loving touch....

Need

©Dana Price

December

2013

Tangled ( For Meredith, Shirley, Margo and all who feel this so acutely )

Middle of day, middle of night Darkness set hours ago The gray matter within the head It will not slow

On and on thoughts wind around Like a web so dense Attaching itself firmly To the mind's ground

Silently scream, can't anyone hear? The gray matter, it stills not Adheres to the tangled web Anxiety, Fear

Will the mind ever still? Or go on On into darkness Entangled in screams

No one cares to hear From their busy day or slumber Sound, peaceful Dreams Oh What Is That Like?

Tangled gray matter The thoughts adhered firmly there There is not time to rest it Thoughts of this mess Anxiety, Fear

Was days not so long ago All was black and white Now to be turned to thoughts Blood Red In Darkness alone, Twilight

You see I fear not Darkness It I Truly Love Darkness covers my inward screaming In the gray matter, web of trouble, confusion of Life

Has been years now Since quiet overtook Then was simple to glide by A most Tranquil Brook

Years have made a nest Of disturbance in my Soul Weaving round and round Burning like hot, fiery coal

Quiet, be quiet it screams From within No one cares of your tangled gray matter As out of control it spins

Head up, just smile No one will be the wiser

They don’t want to see The tangled mass in your mind Where is compassion, and thoughtful Just a kind word, just a loving hand

Pain in the tangled web of gray matter As real, more real Than the aches, complained about daily

Now I feel my own Compassion, sympathy and more Why shall I bother the gray matter with “it” anymore? I know now, I must take care of my own Leave “it” to endure, alone!

Just that the gray matter, that haunts me,Anxiety, Fear Cannot be seen, so real the Pain No bandage to help, no pill to swallow To get relief, None!

Nothing to see to bandage In the gray matter of tangled mass So must surely be These dark days, Dear God don’t let them last and last

But on and on, it races and hooks To the thorns of the gray matter Please let this pain within the mind stop God Please help me stop the stressful unending chatter

Let the people around me see I can’t take on their problems too I will put on the full armor of God So Lord now, it’s just me and You
If You can hold back an ocean With just one small shore I know you can help me over this mountain Lord And so very much more
So I will do my best To give it all to You I know the gray matter will still feel tangled Until You make things happy again, and oh so peaceful too.

©Dana Price