Tangled ( For Meredith, Shirley, Margo and all who feel this so acutely )
Middle of day, middle of night
Darkness set hours ago
The gray matter within the head
It will not slow
On and on thoughts wind around
Like a web so dense
Attaching itself firmly
To the mind's ground
Silently scream, can't anyone hear?
The gray matter, it stills not
Adheres to the tangled web
Anxiety, Fear
Will the mind ever still?
Or go on
On into darkness
Entangled in screams
No one cares to hear
From their busy day or slumber
Sound, peaceful
Dreams
Oh What Is That Like?
Tangled gray matter
The thoughts adhered firmly there
There is not time to rest it
Thoughts of this mess
Anxiety, Fear
Was days not so long ago
All was black and white
Now to be turned to thoughts Blood Red
In Darkness alone, Twilight
You see I fear not Darkness
It I Truly Love
Darkness covers my inward screaming
In the gray matter, web of trouble, confusion of
Life
Has been years now
Since quiet overtook
Then was simple to glide by
A most Tranquil Brook
Years have made a nest
Of disturbance in my Soul
Weaving round and round
Burning like hot, fiery coal
Quiet, be quiet it screams
From within
No one cares of your tangled gray matter
As out of control it spins
Head up, just smile
No one will be the wiser
They don’t want to see
The tangled mass in your mind
Where is compassion, and thoughtful
Just a kind word, just a loving hand
Pain in the tangled web of gray matter
As real, more real
Than the aches, complained about daily
Now I feel my own Compassion, sympathy and more
Why shall I bother the gray matter with “it” anymore?
I know now, I must take care of my own
Leave “it” to endure, alone!
Just that the gray matter, that haunts me,Anxiety, Fear
Cannot be seen, so real the Pain
No bandage to help, no pill to swallow
To get relief, None!
Nothing to see to bandage
In the gray matter of tangled mass
So must surely be
These dark days, Dear God don’t let them last and last
But on and on, it races and hooks
To the thorns of the gray matter
Please let this pain within the mind stop God
Please help me stop the stressful unending chatter
Let the people around me see
I can’t take on their problems too
I will put on the full armor of God
So Lord now, it’s just me and You
If You can hold back an ocean
With just one small shore
I know you can help me over this mountain Lord
And so very much more
So I will do my best
To give it all to You
I know the gray matter will still feel tangled
Until You make things happy again, and oh so peaceful too.
©Dana Price